I’m tired of feeling sad, empty and miserable all of the time.

My ex husband came to town to take away my car and replace it with a piece of shit. I know I should be thankful considering I don’t have anything else, but it’s an effort to save his “marriage”. Wonder how his wife would feel if she knew what he and I did together last night. 

I miss everything about that man. It’s been 7 months since he left me, why haven’t I healed at all?  Why do I still feel like this? Why can’t I move on? I’ve tried, I just haven’t met anyone who is a better option than my ex. I’m not comparing the new guys to him, I really do give them a fair shot. They’re all emotionally needy,clingy, or completely full of themselves. I thought I was so blessed to meet my soulmate at 19. And now my life is flipped upside down. 

I try to pretend, put on a smile for my little boy, pretend that I am moving on and I’m happy he left me. But truth is, I’d give anything for a second chance to work things out with him. Correct my mistakes, him correct his.

He and I both know his whore isn’t worth making his son fatherless.